A month of Thanksgiving ~ Day 4

Loss comes in many forms: the death of a loved one, an ended relationship, the loss of a home. Sometimes it’s more abstract — a job loss can cause you to lose yourself and your identity.

November 4, 2011

Courage to be me.

I am thankful I have the courage to be myself; earlier this year I lost my job, a stressful time for sure, but within that stress I was able to find a new sense of peace, a harmony within myself. I am not young, so the thought of starting over was overwhelming beyond measure…after what seemed to be an eternity of tears and self indulgent pity (actually a week or so) I finally came to the realization: this is a perfect time to re-evaluate what I want from my career and life. (I should add, I was blessed to have a thoughtful caring husband, who was relieved that I was no longer in that position…he did not think I should be in a position that brought me home in tears on a weekly if not daily basis, and yes, financially it is terribly difficult – we are finding a way to make it) I will use this time to find where I truly belong, maybe it will be to paint, to create, to do what makes me feel alive, what captures my imagination, or do what comes naturally to me… Perhaps I will use this time to start the business I have many times planned, but never had the guts to begin…still,it’s easy to become mired in frustration; I have often had to take time out to regain perspective. My life has thus far been based on the belief an assumption, maybe…if you work hard and do your absolute best, everything will work out…now I need to apply that theory to myself and everything will work out.
In the end, it is me who needs to answer all of these questions to be able to go forward being true to myself…this loss has enabled me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life. For that I am grateful.

Here are some photos I took through out the past summer..I hope you enjoy them.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life… Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary…Steve Jobs

Be well,